Um...Yea

So if you're reading this, I apologize. There's no real point here, I'm just going to ramble a bit. I haven't been able to shut off my mind for the last few days. I haven't been able to sleep, I don't want to eat. It's been a very long week, with an undoubtedly longer one ahead. Biochem lab is going to own my soul, let's just say that much.

Other than that...well...it's the same. But different. Familiar.

Dad's surgery went well, I guess that's the good news.

So what's the bad news? Pretty much everything else. I do have awesome friends who have tried to keep me in good spirits. I wish I could believe everything I've ever said about optimism. Everything I've ever said about destiny and fate. Everything I ever believed when I was lonely but hopeful.

Now I just feel alone.

And I can't help but feel it's my fault.

I guess it's a good thing that Biochem lab is going to own my soul this week. At least I'll have some place to put it.

Now Coldplay - "Fix You". A beautiful, but ultimately painful, song.

"When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?"